The spring season is upon us, which means warmer weather…sun dresses…pedicured toes…and most noticeably the beauty of nature reemerging from the weary winter. Now, besides allergy season being in full effect as well, sneezes and watery eyes can’t take away the beauty spring brings to our surroundings. The winter season takes a toll on the condition and aesthetic of nature; but what’s most beautiful is the ability of our natural environment to exhibit growth after the dull stage of their evolution.
At the inception of Becoming Brilliance, we were inspired to share our journey of being in a “constant state of evolvement”. When life is not going ideal or feels uncomfortable for us, it’s hard to grasp the lesson within it. August 14th, 2014 was the day my journey to growing through, what I was going through truly began. I graduated from college 3 months prior, I’d spent my summer studying for the GRE and a few days earlier I was accepted into graduate school at my alma mater and offered a graduate assistantship that waived my tuition. I was in a period of transition as a recent college grad but things began to improve as the summer continued.
However, I was also in a relationship, that looking back now I had plenty of red flags but chose to ignore them (…hindsight is 20/20). And I don’t want to expound on the relationship too much because it’s not important now; but basically it wasn’t lengthy, healthy and didn’t grow me as an individual but I was blinded by what I thought was “love”. Ultimately, on August 14th a young woman informed me that my boyfriend at that time had been cheating on me with her through a Facebook message including screenshots of their conversations. My heart fell to my stomach as you can imagine and that was the beginning of a downward spiral for me. I was blindsided and although our relationship wasn’t going well, I wasn’t expecting to be hurt like that. So, I spent the next 7 months in a struggle between forgiveness and continuing the relationship OR frankly, kicking his ass to the curb. After being torn for far too long, I eventually picked the latter. 🙂
I’ve revisited this moment in my life because that situation broke me down. Although, those around me weren’t aware of the battle I was fighting, it was extremely real for me internally. However, I’ve grown to be GRATEFUL for August 14th, 2014 and the journey that followed because it was painful and during that time I couldn’t imagine ever being rid of the hurt. But as I type this blog post I am…and have been for a while.
If I hadn’t been broken down that way, I wouldn’t have known that I could build myself back up…and even better. That was my lesson. And furthermore, I may not have been so appreciative of my current relationship and how well I’m treated, if I hadn’t been so overwhelming mistreated. Now, I know as I continue my journey, the good and especially the bad…there is nothing God is going to bring me to, if he weren’t going to bring me through. In spite of the weary stages we may endure, the saving grace is spring comes around every year…so we’re always going to blossom. 😉